Where's my Cookie??

Sunday, October 03, 2004

its just ten hours till the exams. but i feel like not taking it.

for the past week i have not felt gods presence. its like. its just disappeared. i feel like, theres no reason to go on. without god, you just feel this empty feeling. even in church today, i just sat there and just listened to the words of the sermon. Treasure's key. i listened attentively. didnt speak a word. but nothing stayed in my mind. after an exception of a "spiritual high" on last night's youth mountain. ive felt down and feel god's just so distant away from me.
i hope that this feeling is just going to be a passing phase. and i really hope to have more faith in god. and . and just to hear god talk to me. i really envy those people who actually have heard or felt god's presence. coz in this year of my christian faith. i have never heard god's voice or been in his presence. really. all i felt is the tingling feeling, but its just so small. not like what happened to bryan or anything.
so i really just hope and pray for more faith in god. =/

|sam| 8:37 PM|

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