Friday, September 17, 2004 Prefect interviews. what can i say. the only consolation. szus was next to me right through the whole thing. what a good friend. thats besides the point. Jon, Mun, Dickson. all so scary. at the teachers table crowding that small space. then the chair is in the middle of the room. its quite scary. the whole room is dark. the curtains are drawn. then you walk into the room. and all you see is your seat. to your destiny. red pill - you get in blue pill - you dont. (sorry for the lame analogy)
but the red pill is so near. yet so far. the questions hinder you. probe you. they probe for answers. answers to their meaningless questions. like. how much will you sacrifice for being a prefect. studies. cca. prefectship. i mean. all three mean much to me. cca, the bb. its a commitment. its for life. prefect ship. its the same. studies. its the thing you need to get your As. Now im scared. because i may not have given the "politically correct" answers, or the "model" answers. only the answers true to me. hopefully that'll pull me through to the next round. i hope. just hope. faith. hope. that ill make it. somehow. some way. i want to make it. just make it>.< so near. yet so far.
-* Fellowship of the Unshamed-
I am a part of the fellowship of the Unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit
Power. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has
been made. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow
down, back away, or be still. My past is redeemed, my present makes sense,
and my future is secure. I am finished and done with low living, sight
walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tame visions,
mundane talking, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or
popularity. I don't have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised,
regarded, or rewarded. I now live by presence, learn by faith, love by
patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.
My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my
way is rough, my companions few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear.
I cannot be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted,
or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the
presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the
pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of
mediocrity.
I won't give up, back up, let up, or shut up until I've preached up, prayed
up, paid up, stored up, and stayed up for the cause of Christ. I am a
disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until He returns, give until I drop,
preach until all know, and work until He comes.
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